after talking to e-gf for 2 years, she finally let me go see her. I paid for everything despite being an unemployed neet (i have savings). she did hook me up with a good hotel price though and free food (she works at the hotel). on the first day, I kept messaging her asking if she was almost here and she called me annoying. I was just excited to see her. we had a good few days together.. I took her virginity but I feel like she faked it. She bled very little and I think only because she tightened herself up. she bled from me fingering her too but I know shes been fingered before. I kept asking if she'd be okay with me staying longer but she'd just give me the silent treatment. I'm still a secret from all of her family and its a hassle for her to come and see me... despite not only does my family know about her, they even know I've taken a flight to see her. I feel like a pathetic sack of shit.
this was a year ago and I'm trying to plan another visit to her but she resists strongly. she basically finally gave in and said "you can come if you want to, its fine" but then turns it around by saying "dont be upset if we barely see each other at all because I'm training people and my family doesnt know about you" so fuck it I'm not gonna go... i know im unwanted
I broke up with her tonight. I was with her because she accepted my autism, was pretty 'tistic herself and was a pretty girl. but she bullied me often and got off on commanding things of me and making me uncomfortable. and she had no care for my interests at all
so now I'm back to having no friends whatsoever. I guess its better than having 1 shitty friend.
E-gf story
What did you think was gonna happen? You two spergs get married and she shits out a bunch of little mini-spergs? Good thing your gene pools ended where they did
that would have been nice, yes
>I guess its better than having 1 shitty friend.
It truly is user. Fuck people and fuck looking for a gf, especially on the internet.
>duh
>derrr
>I don't pick up on social queues
>I'm a useless piece of shit that can't make it in the real world
>I am a victim on autism spectrum
You really want more of these? kys
e-gf's are a waste of time, get a real gf thats in the same town or don't bother
what are you trying to prove? you think I dont know all that?
Why would you (an autist) have kids with another person (an autist)? I promise, the world does not want more of you
Your life is making me sad
stop
How'd she feel about you 2 breaking up, OP?
do you really live your life based on what you think the world wants instead of what you want? the world doesn't want cunts either but here you are
upset. I think she really believes she loves me but she doesn't. she just doesn't think deeply enough about it. I'm not trying to pull an "I'm le deep thinking man and shes shallow woman" but I think she just doesn't want to be lonely and doesn't realize it
also I think she saw in me someone easy to push around that wouldn't want to make her do things. I'm digging deep into her subconscious but we talked nearly every day for years and I know her pretty well. I think I'm just an okay looking guy that messaged her at the right time on the right place.
its funny cause I could never really entertain her on the phone. she'd create her own entertainment. which usually included teasing me in mean ways that provoked frustration and jealousy and provoking me to be horny only to tell me not to masturbate and she wouldn't send me anything. once I told her that I didn't feel like having phone sex and she told me "I'll find someone else that can satisfy me". she was so full of mind games.. but I truly dont think it was intentional. I think it was done by instinct because its just the way she is and she truly didnt understand how deeply it was wrong or fucked with me.
I could be here ranting all night about her...
Yeah everything will be much better if we had even more depressed spergs complaining about their "e-gfs" on Jow Forums in the next generation.
Imagine the bad luck: you are autistic and depressed and cannot function and you are being raised by depressed autistic slobs on welfare. DOTR soon
I wouldn't be a depressed autistic slob if I had my shit together, you miserable little weirdo
kek you're right I'm sure you'd be a great parent, autismo
why do you even care? all you're doing is bumping my thread, you arent getting under my skin or changing my perspective in anyway whatsoever
Here's my point in a nutshell
ah now I see user, my entire motivations for everything I do is now changed, thank you for showing me the light
>didn't read it
Your ex-girlfriend reminds me a bit of myself with my ex-boyfriend. I was most likely with him due to fears of being alone compounded by my own guilt of leaving him alone. We grew extremely codependent on each other, probably me more than him, but it led to things not working out so well. I wanted to desperately feel loved, but no matter what, it never felt like enough, which resulted in me provoking him in ways to get reactions that made me feel safe or satisfied. I also did not tell my family about him until he threatened to break up with me.
I'm with someone else now. Someone I've had a decade long crush on, and while I haven't been entirely "better", I'm definitely not the same person I was with my ex. I'm more mindful of his feelings and don't challenge him as much.
Get off of my fucking board you disgusting fucking whore.
I met my ex-boyfriend on here back in 2012. I'm pretty sure I've been on the current incarnation of Jow Forums much longer than you have.