AVI, is that you?
Performance enhancers
>you really shouldn't depend on a crutch
I agree. The line between controlled use and dependence/addiction is very fine and most people never realize they've crossed it until they decide to stop using.
No, and I don't know who that is.
>1 maybe 2 coffees a day
>lots and lots of water
>maybe some iced tea or a soda
>not junk food
That's all there is to it. If you're taking drugs or drinking 4+ cups of coffee everyday you actually have a mental problem and need to seek help
>being such a drone you take drugs and destroy your body to make your employer more money
Why can't you just not do drugs or coffee and just be productive? Stop being addicted
>ever drinking coffee
Don't do this
Modafinil and Armodafinil will take away any sleepiness you might have and improve your mood for 12h or so. Ate a plate of white pasta or skipped a night of sleep? It might slow you down but at least you're not sleepy.
I take quarter pill (50mg or 38mg respectively) if I need a little pep. Used to take erry weekday but now I'm down to 0-2 times a week. Armodafinil lasts longer and produces more of a rush. At first I had trouble sleeping the next night even I took it in the very morning but now I've adjusted.
They're really useful for skipping sleep or staying alert on a long car trip if you ever have those needs.
Solid advice right here. Add some exercise or outdoor activities and you're going to have more than enough performance.
Different user here. Dosing since September 2016. 20ug every 3 days is where I landed after much experimentation. More or more frequent doses are overwhelming. Less and I feel anxious, but don't have the depression busting effects. Performance boosts have been alarming to my colleagues, who do not know what my secret is, and I have quit all other antidepressants and mood stabalizers after almost six years of risperidone, seroquel, lamotrigine and Paxil.
I take a 3 week break every 7 weeks and reintroduce with a 300-500ug trip, which is fun as hell, but the next two days are terribly unproductive. If I reintroduce at low doses I feel weird in a way that I can't properly explain and my life takes on a "waking dream" feeling for the next day after dosing. This only stops after a full trip.
I am terrified of my source drying up.
Stop doing it
You waste years on medication that doesn't work, decide to kill yourself, tell a friend and try something crazy instead. For weeks after the crazy thing, your depression is gone. Not masked. Not alleviated. Not tolerable. GONE. You don't actually want to do the crazy thing every few weeks because it's exhausting and you are worried it could go bad, but you want the good effects. So you try small amounts. It works. You keep doing it.
Uh - huh. And go back to being depressed and useless instead of a productive functional member of society. Go fuck yourself, narc.