>gonna fail yet another semester, cause was too unmotivated to get on the projects
>big paper and presentation due today, I have nothing done
>getting old
>can't motivate myself cause am too tired of school
>still live with parents
>parents nag and nag about when I'll finally finish that damn school
>I'm doing a bullshit degree anyway, not like i'll get a good paying job afterwards
>am too stressed about failures now to concentrate and try to do anything school related
>run away from reality into shitposting on mongolian basket weaving forum
>don't talk to counselors and teachers cause too ashamed, and scared I'll start crying in their office
>can't even make a proper friend/relationship cause too ashamed of my failures and don't deserve people's affection anyway
What do int? End my miserable existance? I don't want to go to hell though. Try to get some shitty normie job over summer? Tbh, might stocking isles at walmart seems more appealing atm than cramming my head with worthless information. How do I tell my family I have failed them? They will be so broken hearted I will feel like even more of a loser.
Why even live?
>>don't talk to counselors and teachers cause too ashamed, and scared I'll start crying in their office
They won't care. They've seen worse.
Still, I am too ashamed to cry in front of my family. Doing that in front of strangers just fills me with terror. It's to late for that anyway. With my shitty GPA and overall depression, it's not like getting into debt for one more semester's gonna give me any valuable diploma.
Man I,m in the exact same boat, time to just off myself i guess
Wagekek, you'll have some income at least, will be able to afford some hobbies and being financially independent will boost your self-worth.
Don't expect miracles though.
I feel for you, burgerfriend
if it's so bad that you're considering killing yourself over it then just drop out, get a job and maybe go back to school after you got your shit together
I feel you're coming from, really, but it's simply not worth giving up on your life for some dumb ass piece of paper, even more so if it's a meme degree
What kind of job though? I have no real skills. I worked in an office at some point. And I help teach kids a foreign language on Saturdays. But that's it.
Wish I just went into culinary school and opened bakery instead of falling for the Academic """"elite"""" meme.
I am in the exact same position. I wish I could be someone else. I wish I was better. I am actually getting worse and numb. How do I get off this ride? If my mom would die I genuinely think I would kill myself
It's not a piece of paper but failing my family desu. Then again, as I said above, I don't wanna go to hell, so suicide is out of the question, as appealing of an escape as it seems now.
I lost all my motivation last year, but after I failed three papers, the fear of letting everything slip away renewed by energy. I studied hard and passed 8 subjects in the subsequent semester.
Yeah. This happens to me all the time though. I fail and promise to be super motivated and pass next semester. I start next semester very much optimistic and motivated (despite lacking funds in my bank account) but then mid-semester it all ends. I lose interest in classes, can't motivate myself to do work, get depressed and suicidal, fail and then get motivated again for the next semester. It is a vicious circle.
>tfw doing geat in uni
lucky bastard, what's your major?
Software Engineering
Does it have subjects related to hardware?
I lost motivation because I only find high level concepts interesting, and computer engineering has way too much hardware and low level stuff in the second and third years.
>Quit when I realized that I wasn't uni material
>now I'm happy with my apprenticeship as a banker living the comfy life
To all Uni fags, QUIT as soon as you can if you feel like you're forcing yourself through the bullshit
How did you get apprenticeship as a banker?
I had to follow an introductory course to robotics, but other than that I've only had to deal with high level stuff so far.
University is not for everyone. Stop paying to fail.
I don't know what else to do desu. All my school days my only strong point was being good at academics. I don't even know what kind of a job I could get that'd allow me to at least support myself, apart from stocking isles at walmart or flipping burgers.
So have a long and hard think about it.
At least you have a goal. I finished my uni in 2015 and still have no idea what to do next.
You're overloading yourself with too much at once. Try solving each problem one at a time, starting with the most important ones first. Also, like most of the faggots who frequent this website, you're so eager to look for coping mechanisms to cope with your failures rather than actually finding solutions to your problems. Don't. It's a shitty attitude. Look up self improvement podcasts and the kaizen method.
That escapism isn't helping you bro, cut Jow Forums out, cut pc and electronics out, I used to love that stand-by feeling of day flying by with sensory stimulation distracting me from gathering my thoughts and fall asleep eventually. You're more capable than this, hopefully you learn to take care of yourself.
And what said, tackling problems by dividing them into segments makes it not make you recoil when you think of them. gl
But I do not have a goal. I don't care about the school anymore, but I don't know what kind of job I could get. Good news is that my parents are going out of the country for few weeks in the early May. Hopefully I'll be able to find some job at that time so the shock is not too great when I tell them I failed again.
>right before a written test
>know the subject well
>someone else from class knows shit
>they ask me to explain
>spend 30 minutes explaining basic concepts
>test
>get an average grade
>the other person gets high grade
>check their work
>they have written exactly the same as I have, except they also padded their text with useless information, so their paragraph is three times larger
I hate university.
I applied to a shittton of banks until eventually one replied back
I will try to do that. I really think going on with school will not be that big of a benefit for me. The fear of social stigmatization is very big though.
They just took you in without a degree?
Here most "companions" how we call them have only a high school diploma, they work in a bank and help you with whatever you need.
Maybe they were actually much smarter than you, being able to learn and understand the concepts so quickly and even expanded upon them in ways that you couldn't understand.
pity bump
I’m on the same boat user, have an oral retake exam on Thursday which is the last one to get my engineering degree and I’m not studying out of depression. Already submitted my B.Sc. Thesis last Thursday and my counsellor actually did me a favour (since he his boss had to change his tight schedule for me) by letting me present it in a week so I can focus on this last exam, which by the way is my third attempt to pass and I’m simply too depressed and dumb to understand the subject. Btw my studies are designed to be done in 6 semesters and I’m on my 11th (actually 13th because I took a year as neet because of clinical depression caused by my studies). If I don’t finish my studies this semester I’m offcially our after 6 years doing this shit, hence my stress and desire to die. At least I have a family that cares for me, my mother recently moved to my shared students flat to give me emotional support, cook for me an stuff.
I used to be similar to you. My advice is to do what I did
>defer university for a year
>get a part time job with consistent hours
>start trying to build a schedule that you'll follow every day, wake up at the same time, go to bed at the same time, exercise and do something productive every single day. try to build this gradually
>depending on how you manage, go back to university part time and keep your job while getting back into the swing of study
>work your way back into full time study
Four years ago I was horribly depressed, failing everything and spent my life lying in bed, posting on Jow Forums and wanking. Now I've almost graduated university now with a distinction average and I already have a grad job lined up with one of the biggest companies in the world.
Since I’m mentally incapable of passing that exam I’m planing on actually crying in front of the professor so he passes me out of pity. I know it sounds pathetic but my situation is quite fucked up. I won’t be the first one that did that and that went through that because of rumours I’ve heard of desperate students that had to do that in order to pass this last exam with this professor.
Also I’m fucking worried my thesis is too shitty to get passed but still that’s more likely than getting passed on my oral retake exam next Thursday.
>crying in front of the professor so he passes me out of pity
you see, I'd die if I had to cry in front of anyone. I'll probably try to do what Aussiebro recommended
Ach Bernd...