Why am i such a fucking failure

Zoomer starts from 95, kid

i dunno about that
maybe 1 in 1 million people can be failures around 20 and still turn it around

Every time I have to make a decision I'm either very decisively wrong or right but fuck it up from other thinking
I don't have the 'it' every person who makes it has

me too

Life is meaningless, it's up to you to give yours meaning, but don't push yourself, just try to think about what you truly want to be instead of mortifying yourself about being a failure, out of unrealistic expectations.

Try meditation, the introspective you gain from it can help you find what you really want to do, and eventually build the willpower to do it.

i just want something bigger than myself
inner peace just doesnt cut it