Has anyone else here lost a lot of their emotions?

read the unabomer manifesto. It's short

Don't you think making your own child go through same misery circle is vile and cynic? I'd prefer not having children at all

Same sentiment as you, Finland
Though when I was on their forum, I talked to a lot of folks there and they re-assured me to not self-diagnose and go and get myself checked

One member even gave me a copy of a book regarding Schizoid Personality Disorder and told me to read it and contemplate

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Yes, I’ve lost all of it and also schizoid. At least the depression went away. But now I feel like my life is over like I’ve completed a video game but still playing it, having nothing left to do
Alcohol helps give me a sensation of life back

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I still believe that life is worth living overall, but this current liminal phase between youth and maturity can be rough. For many, its about saying goodbye to fantasy and boundless opportunity, and reluctantly embracing monotonous reality and all of its responsibilities and challenges.

You're suddenly awakened to the fact that your grandiose career/life dreams are infeasible, that time is passing quickly, and that opportunities are escaping you. You stop learning as much as you did in school, your days become more rote, and you feel burdened by more responsibility (either you take it on and become a wageslave, or you shun it but feel guilt or hopelessness). But after a while, you adjust to the new world and start to appreciate the subtler pleasures of life (I hope).

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No not really. Been a NEET for 13 years now. It's just comfy.

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>I can feel my emotions fading
You are like a baby. My grandma died yesterday. When I heard it I was like "Oh that sucks, I liked her" but that's it. Absolutely nothing impresses me. I kinda feel like a god in a way since I'm literally impressed by nothing and don't fear anything anymore because I won't give a single fuck if I died. On the other hand I know I'm probably a schyzo weirdo and a lot of people are really uneased when they hang out with me because of how detached I am to everyone/everything.

same

>I feel like my life is over like I’ve completed a video game but still playing it, having nothing left to do.
Exactly. I feel like playing GTA san andreas with 100% completion save and just driving around the map on a sanchez.

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This is anomie and clinical depression. If you don't kill yourself you have the benefit of not caring about the really stupid emotions anymore but you really enjoy the good ones when they come up. You actually need to care about things if you want to have emotional attachments.

>Absolutely nothing impresses me. I kinda feel like a god in a way since I'm literally impressed by nothing and don't fear anything anymore because I won't give a single fuck if I died.
Holy shit, this. Exactly this. In a way this could be our godmode, if we could only care enough to utilize it. At least I feel that way.
I wrote a speech for my brother’s wedding this fall. I wrote the thing down in a couple hours, read it out loud ONCE and knew I would ace it when the time came. Well I did. I felt no anxiety whatsoever walking up to the podium and felt like I could manipulate the whole hall however I wished. The speech had every emotion I wished I still had woven into it and I knew exactly how to move these people. Like I could sense when to press the attack and force those tears out. I had been an empty shell long enough to become a real good actor as well. I made them chuckle, then laugh, then ponder, then cry, exactly like planned, like I was playing on fucking godmode. That night I was guaranteed a lay, as admiring girls buzzed around me the whole evening, and as usual I played along, feigning interest and throwing back clever flirts just to toy with them.
To this day my family members are kind of perplexed and never shut up about my performance. The whole experience should have been great, but left me further convinced that everything is just boring and easy and pointless

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I have gotten more emotions but become better at hiding them or acting like a normie. Regular people are all so numb by distractions and too much entertainment, while I like to just lay away my phone and think. Most people are so simple in their minds, it is almost like they stop devolving mentally at the 15 years old and stay like that.

A schizoid does not have feelings towards having friends, gf, family, etc

I have repressed those feelings to the point that they don'¡t bother me. But that does not make me an schizoid. An schizoid is not some who learns to repress those feelings, he is someone who does not have them in first place.

You don't seem to understand

I have emotions, but I suppress them and practically never show them in public or in front other people

That's very interesting. Are you sure about this? I was diagnosed with Schizoid Personality Disorder but was once a fully functual very feeling person. If my psychologist got it wrong then I would be very happy.
Perhaps I'm like you and have just repressed my feelings and could get them back at some point? I don't really know how this stuff works tbqh

AND YOU DON'T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND

I still occasionally feel intense anger whereby I try to destroy everything around me, otherwise no

>boohoo no emotions schizoid
What a mumbo jumbo. It's normal to go numb when not doing anything or being in prison.
Is it some kind of duty to not be like that?

Get out of your room and you'll see that you are only razionalizing to accept your status

If you're suffering from depression, the book 'Feeling Good' by MD David Burns can help. It's about cognitive-behavioral therapy, a successful treatment for depression.
Link to PDF:
sendspace.com/file/p4j962

You can also try some St. John's Wort (it's a plant) tea for immediate relief (I mix mine with Melissa for the calming effect), see if it works for you. I'm currently trying it out myself, no opinion yet.

It might also be nice to learn to meditate, as it can relieve your mind of negative thoughts. nperov.com has some learning materials.

Or maybe you just have a vitamin D defficiency.

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After becoming more Jow Forums, developing a healthier lifestyle and reprogramming my brain to achieve a more Alpha mindset, I've ascended my pathetic Jow Forums phase. I frequent Jow Forums more now, and even many Anons on that board are a bunch of whiney little pussies to be honest. Skimming posts ITT gives me positive confirmation in my quest for self-improvement. Do yourself a favor and start working out.

>flag
>gymcel optimism pill
Gritings trv fränns

You're proving my point; stop being so hard on yourself.

What do you mean? Have you had the diagnosis and gotten out of it? pls respond
Good for you man

But you're like in the beginning stages of inceldom, I've gone through my gymcel phase.
Mentalcel can't be fixed by being yourself.

Not all my emotions, just anger.
I used to get PISSED, like holes in walls vein popping genuine rage. I don't any longer, I think I forgot how.
I miss it, I think I'm worse off without it.

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>trying to read me in 2 posts
Good analysis

Don't take it as an offense, be better to yourselves Anons.

Wish I could improve myself like you've done user. I tried exercising a lot for about 2 months this year because I thought I could somehow kickstart my motivation and get the ball rolling. I failed though unfortunately, my motivation just seems fried, like everything else appears to be
I do believe adopting your mentality will drastically improve some mental illnesses. I got out of my 7 years of depression by getting fit some years ago actually.
But this SPD stuff is different. It's just impossible to handle, like trying to climb a slippery wall or something, can't be done (and looks like it's getting worse too)
It also looks like the ol' schizophrenia is down the road for me too, so eh, why bother kek