My ex texted me yesterday and its messing with my head and making me mourn the breakup again. Its making me super antsy.
And I lost a bunch of money gambling on penny stocks
GIOYC / Get It Off Your Chest
They said last time it was this bad it lasted for years. I've told them I care and am not going anywhere, but I don't think it makes a difference. If I am pushed away for that long I don't know how I am going to hang on. It makes me sad. I am also afraid of him an heroing and how much it will destroy me one day. It makes me think the gradual drifting apart would be better in the long run but it really sucks right now.
Tell them to try Acetyl l carnitine. It broke me from a two year depression. It’s sold in pharmacies, it’s just a supplement. They did a study and found that some depressed people are deficient in it. It’s also helpful for Alzheimer’s patients for memory and overall brain health.
Thank you user. I will look into this.
Seriously all you depressed people need to rely on your support systems instead of trashing them. The very drive to push people away is part of the illness. The feelings of self sacrifice and self martirization actually hurt the very people who care.
WHY AM I ALWAYS SO NERVOUS ABOUT READING EMAILS FROM MY INSTRUCTORS RESPONDING TO MY OWN NERVOUS EMAILS???
WHY DOES BEING NERVOUS MAKE ME MORE NERVOUS TO THE POINT THAT I CAN'T EVEN USE LOGIC WELL BECAUSE TRYING TO GUESS HOW THEY WILL REACT MAKES ME FFSFTSETREX4GHGFSAAXAD ASAF HD FDFF AAAAHHHHH
Everytime I email an instructor about anything, even if I'm not nervous at first EVERY TIME
Is there a point in trying?
YES I FUCKING GET IT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE IT WORSE THAN ME BUT THAT DOESN'T MAKE THE FUCKING PAIN AND THE FACT I FUNCTION LIKE AN ELDERLY NEEDING HELP DOING BASIC NEEDS ANY BETTER
JESUS CHRIST
>hurr durr but you're so young!
WELL FUCKING EXCUSE ME M'LADY LET ME CALL MY RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS AND TELL IT "hey man, so uhh, people said you're here too early can you come lile in 40 years?" I'M SURE IT'LL JUST FUCK OFF AND I'LL BE CURED
>but the other day you were walking just fine!
YEAH SORRY I FUCKING FORGOT MY ILLNESS AT HOME LOLE
>but you don't... look sick
AND YOU DIDN'T LOOK LIKE A TWAT YET YOU ARE BITCH
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY OUTSIDE AND I WANT TO GO FOR A WALK AND SWIM AND I GOT ASSIGNMENTS TO DO AND I WANT TO WORK AND I WANT TO DO SO MANY THINGS AND I CAN'T AND MY DREAMS ARE CRUSHED BECAUSE MY BODY AND EXISTENCE IS A FUCKING, RETARDED, PIECE OF SHIT THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN AND EVENTUALLY WILL BE DECIMATED BY NATURAL SELECTION
*inhale*
HOLY
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Maybe, maybe not, but think of the potential of all the days after that and get you some help.
I've got a bit of a conundrum here, Jow Forums, don't feel like making a separate thread for it so I'll post it here.
I'm thinking about applying for a paid internship with a think tank that pushes public policies I don't really agree with. I mean, I agree with it in the abstract, but I disagree with probably about 50% (maybe more if you take into consideration that they prioritize the part I disagree with over the part I agree with) of the actual policies they want to support.
They expect applicants to agree with what they do, and I'm positive I could convince them that I do (I used to). Is this unethical? Should I do it?