Vipassana and associated Hindu meditation methods are demon worship. No surprise that every experienced meditator becomes a monist who believes he and the universe is God.
Instead learn the lost Byzantine tradition of hesychasm - meditation done the correct, Christian way. It will make you a better, holier person and it will reconcile God's immanence with God's transcendence in your heart.
Pro tip: when your “monkey mind” is racing (especially if you’re a verbal thinker) just treat your thoughts like they are someone you’re only half listening to. You nod along and say mhmm, but you’re not really listening. It will move from subject to subject, it will try to become the first person speaker so that it feels like “you” but just nod along and and let it talk. Your higher self will start to notice a pattern in its tactics.
Remember, meditation shouldn’t feel like a prison. You should feel like you’re focused on a heavy lift.
I was planning to start today because I need mental stability and I need it fast.
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