yo, Jow Forums, does anyone here know my feel? >missing a sense for life >hence no lust for living >nothing i previously enjoyed entices me anymore >feeling estranged from the world >tfw no spiritualiy anymore >theres beauty, i can see it, but i cant connect i'm dead inside and feel utterly depressed. what do?
>inb4 therapy i don't want to go to therapy because i feel like therapy could in the best case only fix me in order to function and get on, which is not what i want at all. i want to get back my sense for life, my link to the actual world, my spirituality, if i even had such. and i cant imagine anything more estranging and mojo killing than going to some paid, trained shrink to talk about this shit and get some pills prescribed.
i think that therapy would only hide a question that i actually want to see either answered or disappear altogether. am i wrong?
>don't really achieve much except for good marks at school and being slightly above average at cricket >don't believe I can achieve anything, find the idea of me ever having a proper job/sexual relations unthinkable >Have little motivation to do it despite conscious thought because I fundamentally dont think of my self as able to ever be a proper member of society >Spend the majority of my life distracting myself, here, YouTube, porn, drinking. Even going to bed I get caught in shit thought cycles and need to phone post to distract myself >Achieve nothing
I'm not talented at anything and there's basically no guidnence which isn't a scam so I'm fucked. I'm doing a mechanics course at the moment to learn shit about cars but even then when it's the basics there's tons of base knowledge you're just assumed to have. There's just no entry level anymore you have to inherently be good because why would they take anybody except the top percentages when everythings so saturated
Jacob Scott
I've always been like this, disconnected from the world inside my autism bubble. I could never relate to people who were just enjoying like, pursuing goals, making friends and relationships, it always seemed so alien to me. I was literally never alive in the first place.
Wyatt Gomez
Family, Country, God.
Strive to make make a family, help out your country if not just your community, Start going to church if you have any religious feelings.