You can improve, things always get better, even only a year of happiness makes it worthy years of suffering.
Also the chemistry of your brain is fucking you, go to a therapist, start meditating, hit the gym just because it's good for you, not cuz you like it.
Things will get better, it's not your fault, you don't need to suffer, love yourself.
user gives good advice.
you're not worthless, OP.
I don't recommend it. Every time I think of death I wonder about all the people who will forget me, and how I'll be remembered. I want to do something special, whether it's hitting it big making dumb cartoons or stories, or settling down and having a family.
Also great advice. If you really feel that low, just bum around the country, or even the world, if you can. Try something new, talk to strangers that you think are cool. What is there to lose?
I hope someday you will be gripped by the same fear I have of not having enough time to do what I want and I mean that in the nicest way possible.
Also, seek professional help before doing anything particularly reckless. I'd hate to have you find a reason to live only to be utterly fucked legally or financially.
Thanks all. The irony is that I stopped someone from killing themselves a few months ago. But the last month this is all I can think about.
I’ve been thinking about it for a year too. Don’t do it bro I’d be sad if you did.
Nothing matters anyway, do it or dont
Thanks. I did the whole George Bailey thing in my head and realised I wouldn't make a hole in the world by not being here, but it's nice when someone says I would.
Honestly just go somewhere beautiful. Save up for a car and enough gas to drive you as far as you want. Take a trip. After you do all that and experience life for a while. Than do it if you do decide your good. If after all of that and everything you see and all the people you meet you decide this life isnt worth living than only then kill yourself.
Thank you. I know it sounds stupid, but some of the comments here make me want to hit pause on doing anything. Its nice when someone who doesn't know who you are cares if you're here. Thanks all. I'll try to be here a while.